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Monday, 13 June 05 :: yes.

that thing in me that does not want to be working in the movement anymore -- that thing i connected with so deeply this weekend at heart of now --- it is very true in this moment. i don't want to talk politics, i don't want to organize, i don't want to do any of it. *SIGH*

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in good news -- i had a wonderful time at heart of now this weekend. a truly wonderful time. i HOPE to be back next month.. if i can arrange my schedule. saturday was really sucky, but sunday -- i asked for and got what i needed. i've jumped in and working on becoming the person i SO want to be. i helped students. i hope i helped other assistants. i connected deeply and honestly with people. i laughed outloud, a lot. i kissed and cuddled with little children. i felt deep sadness. i felt extreme joy. i danced with joy and fatiuge. i danced my sadness away, i danced my fears. i lifted heavy things and dreamt about times gone by and times to come. i felt called to this side of the movement. i hope to great hopes that i will be able to find a way to do this work every month until i go to grad school.

posted by brooke at June 13, 2005 08:15 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.