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Tuesday, 2 October 07 ::
craptastic mood.
Seriously, I think I hit the wall sometime between 2.30 and 3 today. A long long meeting that seemed to take a long time to get to the place that we seemed to be at the beginning. I dunno, I think I just have little patience with people this week - very very little patience with people this week. It started on Monday and pushing through getting an assigment done, and then tomorrow and having to be in class pretty much from 8.30 - 6. Ick.
And then, then getting an email from some liberal in Eugene encouraging people to boycott the Olympics. OH MY GOD. I may have had a diatribe about standing up and doing what is right, but, hopefully what came across in my diatribe was understanding and having compassion for perspectives we don't understand. I mean - TAKE POWER AND DO GOOD WITH IT. Don't take power like those who we object with. Don't make our fight look like the fight of those on the other side, dammit! Use the good to expand your perspective, to understand that POWER IS BAD, USE POWER TO DIFFUSE IT.
And darnit. If you are a liberal who has been in Eugene for, goddess, enough time to think that the world is just like you.. get in your car, drive 836 miles, and set up shop in Logan for 6 months. And your perspectives will grow - if you will let your mind grow. You will have to find compassion for people who are different than you, or else you will be very lonely.
Goddess. I would love to introduce you to Tom, Heather, Jon, Sherri, Virginia, Matt, Preston and JaNiel. I would love to show you the gifts that I get to have in my life because I moved here. The gifts found in people that if I were still living in Eugene I would have never opened my heart too, because I saw them as being the THEM.
Yes, I miss Eugene with all my heart. Yes, I want to go back to a place like Eugene. Yes, I struggle here. But do I regret it? Heck no. I don't, because of those people I just listed. Because even though I don't sound it, I have actually grown because of these people in my life. I have had to become a better person so I wouldn't be so freakin' lonely. I have seen that there isn't them and us, that there is just us and while I disagree with some of the things my friends believe in, I can still love them as dear dear friends. I count on these people daily, I could not survive this experience without them. Such gifts.
So, I'm irked about those damn liberals who have become just like those on the right who hate everyone. Because a liberal who hates someone because they are conservative or Mormon, or or or.. is actually worse than conservatives and Mormons and all those other people who hate someone because they are queer, or trans, or or or.. because liberals claim to love everyone. A liberal acting like a hateful conservative is worse, because they are doing the thing they claim not too. A conservative who hates queers, well - at least they aren't being hypcritical.
Oh, I am in a crab crab crabbbbbby mood!!! I feel sorry for any close minded liberal who crosses MY path. They aren't going to like it.
posted by brooke at October 2, 2007 11:09 PM
