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Monday, 12 February 07 :: lessons

An email I just sent to a friend:

We often look to our friends to back us up in times of distress, and when they don't, well, it can be difficult. But, if there's one thing I've learned from this process I've been going through is that often the things we really need to hear aren't the ones we want to hear. While I am dissapointed in myself that I am not as far down the path as I wish I was, I am grateful that I am far enough down to recognize when I'm reacting to something I need to hear, rather than want to hear.

Humility is a hard lesson to learn. And, for me, what is even more difficult, is how to be humble while not giving up a hard won self-esteem. My struggle to be seen has been a loud one, and often the yelling causes people to put ear plugs in. One of my closest friends here in Logan is one of the quiet ones. She's quiet and yet her force is powerful.

posted by brooke at February 12, 2007 11:24 AM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.