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Sunday, 19 November 06 :: meeting tommorrow

i'm fretting just a bit tonight about a meeting i have tommorrow. i know, i really shouldn't be fretting, but, honestly, i enjoy a good fret. i do it so well, and so frequently. fretting is like a drug, and apparently its one that i enjoy.

anyhow. ygpd* and i have a meeting tommorrow with someone about a project i've been working on. at this point i'm a tad frustrated about the whole thing, but if the meeting goes the way WE want it to go all my plans for next semester and beyond will be able to be moved forward, if it doesn't, poor ygpd could have a tearful phd student on his hands for the 5 minute drive back to the ed building (lucky for him its only 5 minutes). yes, if the meeting doesn't go as we hope, i am not sure what i will do about next semester as far as projects and my hopes, and plans since i got here to be prepared to start presenting and publishing my second year here at USU.

i don't want to go into specifics, becuase, frankly, its a bit too maddening. and the work i've been doing isn't wasted, and i have found what my research interest is, and honestly, that doesn't usually happen to all phd students as early as i've found it.. and that is nice, but this meeting tommorrow is about how i've been planning to apply the very limited knowledge i've gained in the area. i'm interested in application, i'm interested in reading theories and applying at the same time. like i said, my work this semester won't be wasted, it will just be.. put off a bit. until i find that next great way to apply it.

so, if you believe in prayer for things like little meetings like this, i wouldn't object. apparently ygpd is going to be talking, so praying for some divine inspiration for him wouldn't hurt either.

*sigh* maybe one day i will learn not to fret. but i am only 33. that may seem old to some people, but frankly, i feel very young most days. i'm not sure if we ever outgrow that feeling. somedays i hope i do, and other days i'm glad i don't.

*ygpd - young geeky professor dude.. aka my advisor / major professor.

posted by brooke at November 19, 2006 04:37 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.