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Wednesday, 19 July 06 :: i should be asleep

i'm up late just looking at usu stuff.

*sigh*

i start my job at cosl 2 weeks from today.

*sigh*

i'm excited about what the future holds, but at the same time i don't want to leave my friends (or 2 of my cats) here. leaving my cats is heart breaking, leaving my friends is scary.

*sigh*

and..

shhhh.

i'm worried if i can pull this off.

yes. that book, that guide to the ph.d. program, it frightens me.

hmm.

yeah.

i'm going to logan, ut, to put myself through this? i must have some kind of masochism complex, eh?

seriously. this better be fun. at least some of the time. and i hope to laugh. a lot. *sigh* i won't survive this without lots of laughter.

*sigh*

have i mentioned, i'm going to miss my friends?

*sigh*

but, honestly, i think its better to be worried than to be cocky. its a sign of humility. maybe. or. who knows.

what i do know is that friday night i go out to see friends. heart of now friends. and do a dig of my soul. hmm. should be a good weekend. i hope.

*sigh*

posted by brooke at July 19, 2006 01:34 AM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.