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Tuesday, 21 March 06 :: more reflection

this really is more for my ownself as i grieve the end of a friendship then anyone who may read this. and, to pat myself on the back, its some damn good reflection.

this is an excerpt from an email to a friend who knows both of us..

really m, the friendship hasn't felt good to me for a long time (you've heard a lot of it). yesterday as i was driving back into town and had decided to end the friendship i felt like i could breathe for the first time in a long time. but like i said, it doesn't change how i feel about her (that i love and care for her deeply).. i've just finally read the writing thats been on the wall for awhile now -- our patterns don't match, and they don't match in a way that makes a friendship incredibly difficult. i honestly don't feel like working this hard anymore on a friendship where the dividends feel more like a drug high then good nutrition.

posted by brooke at March 21, 2006 11:39 AM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.