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Monday, 20 March 06 :: i hate what just happened

yeah. i made a committment to a friendship. a deep committment. but it just hadn't been working for me for awhile now. i tried and tried. really, i did. and maybe she did too? i don't know. but it certainly didn't feel like it. it certainly didn't feel like the friendship was 2 way. but, i'd made a committment, and i cared for her deeply. i care for her deeply. but it wasn't healthy. and i will miss her in my life. hmm. well, she'll still be in my life, but not my social life anymore. i will miss the good moments. but i won't miss the moments of not acknowledgement. i won't miss the moments of hoping she could be there for me as well. i won't miss hoping she would notice me.

posted by brooke at March 20, 2006 04:27 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.