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Saturday, 25 February 06 ::
no fire for gitmo.
i went to see a play tonight about guantanamo bay, and the horrors that are happening down there. i learned a lot about gitmo bay back when i was doing bill of rights defense committee work. what i heard tonight wasn't new for me.. i mean, the individual facts were new, but the whole concept of gitmo being a concentration camp was not new news.
when the play was over i walked over to a friend of mine and said 'i just don't have the fire anymore.' i mean, i hear this play, and in the past i would have gotten all fired up about going out and getting angry and protesting and all that.. but, well.. its just not there.
its not that i don't care, and its not that i don't get angry.. but i know what it takes to get all riled up, i know what it takes to make a small amount of change in the realm of world politics. i guess i'm just a big wus, i guess i don't care as much as i once did, or.. i dunno, but i don't have it in me to try to get people all fired up to go out and plead politicians to do the thing that is right and just.
its not that i'm bitter, its just that i don't have the energy for it. okay, thats a lie, i still am somewhat bitter. even tonight i heard someone say 'here's an idea, now someone take it and run with it.' my attitude is 'its your idea, now run with it yourself.. most of the people in this room are already running with their own ideas.'
but beyond that, the things i'm hearing that the public are just starting to get, i feel like i knew a few years ago. i get it that the bush administration is doing all sorts of bad stuff. i've done what i can, and now i've turned my energy elsewhere. there's a lot of healing that needs to take place in this country. the last 4.5 years have been full of a lot of icky arguing. the last 4.5 years have been a time of great unrest on every level. the country is starting to swing back politically, and along with that swing, a lot of healing needs to happen. and thats where i'm at. healing myself, doing what i can to hold space for others who are healing themselves as well.
so no, i'm not all fired up anymore. i'm glad others are. i'm glad others are still really pissed off. i'm glad.. i'm glad others feel the need to take the torch and carry it. and while they do that, i think i'll go find a nice couch and invite others to come curl up with me on that couch. we'll cheer on those who are carrying the torch and we'll save space for them on the couch for when they want to take a break, rest and heal.
posted by brooke at February 25, 2006 10:46 PM
