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Thursday, 5 January 06 :: ugh.

i'm supposed to be having breast reduction surgery 2 weeks from yesterday.. i'm starting to question whether i'll do it or not.. but most likely i will. and that being the case, everything i've read says to stop things like caffeine 2 weeks prior. that was technically yesterday, but in actuality today. :P

last night i picked up some every day detox tea to start some kind of good process, and i'm going to try to quit eating so much candy and crap. i'm also going to make sure i drink a couple of emergen'cs a day because i hear vitamin c is good for the soul, as long as siberian ginseng for my immune system.

.... but NONE of that is COFFEE. none of that will have the lucious taste of hazelnut and coffee mixed together, and none of that will give my body that happy little caffeine buzz i'm enjoying so much these days.

i'm so screwed. not only me, but my new co-workers as well. i'm sure within the next couple of days they are going to wonder what the fuck m thought was so wonderful about me to bring me on. i'm nearly certain that by the middle of next week -- as my stress towards this whole thing rises and its been nearly a week since my last cup of coffee they are going to be telling m to go ahead and fire me. ha! and i can't be fired because i'm not being paid.. but thats how desperate they are going to be to get rid of me because i will be SO INCREDIBLY GRUMPY. my co-workers are so screwed. and poor m is going to wonder about her new friend that she liked so much at one point that she convinced her to leave her paid job to come work with her and her organization at a non-paid job. she's going to wonder about her judgement of people. m is so screwed, and then she has to go to HoN and see me there TOO!

shit. are smaller boobs REALLY worth this???

posted by brooke at January 5, 2006 08:26 AM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.