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Saturday, 28 January 06 :: sometimes ya gotta accept

that things change. yeah, i've never been one very good at it, but its just a fact. and it doesn't mean it won't feel icky.

on the ego filled side. n called me today. 2 reasons why -- one ego filled, one not. i called friend e to ask her, and her first reaction was the ego filled one, and then reasoned it could have been the non-ego filled one. i think until i call her back --- tommorrow afternoon -- i'll stick with the ego filled reason.

yeah. dig-it. e says i'm good at what i do. goddess, that feels good to hear. my ego isn't feeling to great today.

in other news i have 3 people i should call tommorrow. dunno why its so hard for me.. a friend from HoN that i hope to connect with, outside of HoN; a guy about finding out when the next co-counseling course is (i only hope its soon, and not on a tuesday night or saturday day); and my uncle, whom i haven't spoken with in nearly 3 years?? fuck, has it been that long? goddess yes, it has been that long. and its my next step, so i need to get on with it. no my friend p in california, i've not forgotten, i'm just a bit late my friend, please forgive.

in recovery from smaller boobs surgery, this is the first night the cats are sleeping with me since the whole thing began. they are thrilled, but, frankly, i've not missed them much. they wake me up a lot at night, because there are 4 of them, and they move around.. not a lot individually, but collectively. plus tonight was the first time i took my bra off, and it didn't feel like the little suckers were going to fall back through their sutures.. AND some of the scabs around the sutures are starting to come off, ON THEIR OWN, without me picking (i'm a scab picker). they are still sore in the suture area when i move some, but i'm not on any pain pills, so thats just ducky. hopefully this rate of recovery will continue and i'll actually start enjoying them, and eventually stop having all my focus be on my boobs. i can't wait for that to happen.

posted by brooke at January 28, 2006 08:36 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.