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Thursday, 24 November 05 :: rough night tonight

i'm having a rough night tonight. *sigh* i want to be held. i want to be held and i have no one to hold me. i want to be held long, and i want to be held with depth. i want to be held by someone who loves me, someone who knows all my faults and likes me anyways.

i'm having a rough night tonight. i used to not know what it felt like to be held when i so need it, but now i do. i wonder, i wonder if it would have been better to never have known what i now know i'm missing.

posted by brooke at November 24, 2005 09:55 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.