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Tuesday, 4 October 05 :: in this moment.

i know how different i am than i once was. i'm not sure who the better person is.

also, i realize i am truly a pacific northwesterner, through and through. i'm way too touchy feely for the east coast now.

and, i'm incredibly grateful for the friends i have. the ones who assure me, after talking to the east coast, that i am not crazy, that, in fact, i'm just like them. with all my emotions and my want for a good, but emotional, life. it was so nice to hear on the phone with j 'i'm honoured you called.' thanks j, i'm glad you were on the other end.

i understand my dad's need to have boundaries around not having unpleasant emotions, but i hope he can understand my need to have my emotions. i can't suck it up anymore, i did that for a really long time, and where did it get me? on disability with a chronic illness. i'm not angry, its just a difference in being.

posted by brooke at October 4, 2005 02:52 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.