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Sunday, 24 July 05 ::
dreams of bc.
i'm back from vacation with my mom. it was a good vacation and we did things that i never thought i'd get to do in my life time. re: we hiked in a place with views i thought i'd never ever get to experience. beautiful 'alpine' views in the canadian western coastal mountains. each of us pushing ourselves against the terrain, the heat, and the brighter-than-we-are-used-to sun.
we spent a lot of time talking about my future. this whole ph.d. thing. there's a lot of hope and excitement there. a lot of debating about what to do. a lot of wondering about east coast schools vs university of washington. i know i have to get in first, but a girl can at least think positively about her future, can't she?
at some point i will sit down and weigh pros and cons. at some point i will do that. my heart or my head? or both.
*sigh*
mom is confident that i can do this ph.d thing -- at a top program. she should know, she has a ph.d. in education, some of the people i grew up with -- some of her dearest friends -- trained the people that i hope to get the chance to train (study) with. she would tell me if she didn't think i could hack it, or get in.
in the end i know what my goals are. okay, not my goals.. my dreams.
my dreams are simple. kinda. a ph.d. from a top program. maybe even one that allows me to go overseas to study some. meeting a man that wants to settle back in the pacific northwest... specifically a man that wants to emmigrate with me to canada - british columbia, please. getting a job that allows me the flexibility to be me, and allows me to make enough money that money is not a constant worry. and lastly -- and most importantly-- have a child. i'm open to both being pregnant or adopting.
what a dream -- brooke, ph.d., citizen of canada, mom to little harry, partner to beautiful thoughtful man-father.
did you feel the shiver?
ps. for those few who know about my dad. the treatment is working, he's having radiation on the stuff on his spine sometime this summer. his prognosis is better than it was when this whole cancer crap started. keep hoping that what he's doing continues to work.
posted by brooke at July 24, 2005 07:13 PM
