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Tuesday, 28 June 05 :: i did not expect.

to have this emotional crap tonight. this afternoon, yes.. but tonight - no. i expected to laugh a lot. i expected to talk and dance.. but i did not expect major emotional crap.

yes. i just want them all to like me. i want to connect deeply with all of them. i want to cuddle with most of them. i want them all to like me.

signature collecting tommorrow. i now have an intern. this means that i'll have to be way more on my stuff now that i'm responsible for not just me. it will be nice to have the help, but the responsibility is pretty big.

i gotta get over this crush. found out that he's going to be a student in july, and i will be an assistant. its really getting in my way. i wrote him an email. i'll send it in the morning. i hope. i'd rather tell him in person, cause what i'd really like is that after i make a fool out of myself, that he gives me one of those reassuring-that-i'm-not-a-big-idiot hugs that he's so good at giving.

posted by brooke at June 28, 2005 01:13 AM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.