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Sunday, 10 April 05 ::
*sigh*
my body is still sick. after talking to my friend e, apparently on her way to getting healthy, she has energetic days and not - so. today is a not-energetic day. i thought i'd go to the coast.. i was getting ready and decided to lay down for 5 minutes.. next thing i knew it was 2 hours later. *exhausted*
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at some point i'll write a much better lament about really wanting someone to curl up with. i mean, a boyfriend someone. not a feline someone.
its been too long since i've had that. that i've had someone just hold me. someone who i can wake up to, someone who's heart i can listen to in the middle of the night as we're snuggled up together.
i wonder why its been a long time. i try not to dwell in it, i know i can't obsess about it, i must not let looking for mr. him get in the way of living my life. what i know is this is, for the first time ever, that the person that i fall in love with will be a lucky person. what i've been through in my 32 years, the things i've struggled with, the place i'm in now.. i'm a good person, i can laugh (when i'm not sick with bronchitis!) at myself, i sincerely care about people, i'm pretty honest, i enjoy adventure *and* staying at home. and on and on. i have my faults, but everyone has their faults. i'm a good person, and goddess willing, another good person will come along, and he will get the privilage of loving me, and *i* will get the privilage of loving him. i look forward to the day i meet him, i look even more forward to the day that he and i come to the realization as to how lucky we are.
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i should think about going to sleep. work tommorrow. work is stressful. after work is fairly easy, no plans that i know of (except for getting cat food!).
posted by brooke at April 10, 2005 09:27 PM
