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Sunday, 17 April 05 :: rising saddle.

its been a good day. an interesting day. a much better day than the tears i shed last night.

i had a much needed day out, and a much needed night out. tonight i processed a lot with my friend a. goddess, i needed it. after being sick for 2 weeks i needed to touch base. i've been dealing with so many different things over the last weeks, i needed to check in with her.

the big word i come with from the day is rising star. yes, thats what it has been. rising star. its rather humbling, and yet i know that i need to continue doing what i was doing pre-sick to keep the flame alive. its a flame i enjoy, its a flame that will look good on my resume. yes, i look forward to tommorrow and working to build the flame again. 2 weeks can put a damper on things.

what else? i now know where to go late at night, well --- past 9pm -- in eugene. the hilton, yep, there's a bar there that you can just go and sit in. its quiet, great for processing with a friend. great for talking about everything --- phd's, dirt, boys, campaigns, organizing. its great for laughing out loud, its great for whispering secrets.

what's on the agenda for tommorrow? i really should go to fellowship. i need to drop something off with friend p. i need to do work for the future governor. i need to check in with s over at calc. i need to do laundry. i need to load the 3 cd's i checked out from the library onto my computer, i need to go for a bit of a hike, or bike ride. i need to laugh out loud some more.

and the next week? hopefully biking across town to work again -- i'm feeling human for the first time in 2 weeks. i've got a full day on tuesday, i've got meetings every night. and next weekend? time with sweet t, house party for aria who is running for school board, 2 seders, studying for the gre.

i'm gonna get back in the saddle, i'm starting to feel like myself again. it feels good.

posted by brooke at April 17, 2005 12:15 AM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.