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Friday, 17 December 04 ::
maybe its time?
for 6 years i have often thought of georgia. it was in georgia that i started to come of age. i did my college years there, 7 years of frustration, but 7 years of incredible growth. i went to georgia as this innocent kayaking teenager and left with the knowledge of being exluded, for so many reasons.
maybe its time to go back. maybe when i go home next, i'll continue to swing south, after a stop in chapel hill and another in columbia. i think about it everytime i get on that plane to head east, every time i get in the car heading towards columbia, when i pass the exit for 85 west. i always think about what is there, what i want to see.. just for a day. a day of stopping around, from buckhead and lenox plaza to little 5.
i often think about my time in atlanta, the time particularly between my senior year and the time i went off to athens for graduate school. i lived in little 5 points for a year. it was a struggle. no place i've lived has been easy. but back then i had even less than what i have now. my friends were fewer than they are now, my money was less, my future, well.. all i had was a degree that qualified me to teach, and teaching was the last thing i wanted to do. my future was even more in the toilet than it is now.
i miss my favourite resturant, tortillas. yes, it was a little hole in the wall type place. i was introduced to the place by jd. their brocilli tortillas, and best of all their guacamole. yummy and cheap.
i miss the bookstores, driving down ponce with those great parks, eddies, the point, the red light cafe. fuck.. i even miss tearing down 85 in the middle of rush hour traffic. yeah, i was a gluton for adrenaline, and really, rush hour traffic on 85 is a great place for an adrenaline rush -- esp. when you are late getting some place.
i want to go back to see how its changed, to see familiar places routes that i only see in my head now. i want to drive and just look, see what i can see of myself, if i can see anything.
hmm.. i wonder, is there anything left of me back there? when perry and marsha left, was that the end of it all? i know jeff is still there, but.. its been so long. is charis books still yellow? i think its still on euclid, just off monroe. what of toco hills and the movie theatre, and even more-- what of the store front, what happened after they left rainy day records.
i know it won't be the same. no one will be there.. i think i really just need to go and say a proper good-bye.
i'm making a life for myself in eugene, the pacific northwest. i don't need this anymore, but i couldn't have done it if this city hadn't been part of me.
posted by brooke at December 17, 2004 01:20 PM
