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Tuesday, 30 November 04 :: so i talked to baba yaga

so i talked to the person i refer to as a baba yaga today. i need resolve from the pyschic crisis.

i discovered a snarky thing.. by doesn't like to admit doing wrong, at least not to me. frankly for someone like by, i find it rather ridiculous. here i am admitting all my wrongs, and by can't do it? yeah, you fucked up. i told you some blatant things, and you screwed up. i apologize for fucking up, why don't you?

and some not so snarky things. by and i have miscommunicated A LOT. by says one thing and i hear the opposite. or i say something and by hears the opposite. we might have a common experience, but our words are like speaking a foreign language to each other. also, our emotional boundaries, what we each think is okay, are way different.

anyhow. it was good to talk, but, in the end, i'm still very hurt, and a better emotion - i'm waaaay pissed. i'd rather be pissed than hurt, cause pissy is a lot easier for me to handle.

by and i are going to have lunch o saturday. it'll be good, maybe? and hopefully i can keep my pissyness away. and my hurt.

posted by brooke at November 30, 2004 04:05 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.