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Monday, 26 July 04 :: i'm sick again.

i'm sick again. i've been fighting it and denying it.. but its inescapable. and at a time when i thought everything illness wise was under control. i am ready to re-enter the world a success. but no, i'm denied it.

and for all you one or two readers out there who think life sucks with all you are going through.. and you have a partner. try doing life sucks without a partner, all alone. really. it is a hell of a lot hellish knowing that not only can't you succeed in life but you are also not worthy enough to be able to create your own family unit, that even that you have failed at.. and i'm not talking about children, i'm just talking about you and another person, another person who deems you worthy enough. try it. really, you think life sucks now, try my life.

posted by brooke at July 26, 2004 08:32 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.