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Tuesday, 9 October 07 :: i wasn't supposed to be here.

daily i find myself humbled, and thrilled about this work that i am doing here at usu. i've understood why this feeling is such a present one for me, until today. and then it occurred to me. i wasn't supposed to be here. 5 years ago now my life was taking a down turn. i was in the process of leaving the working world behind because i couldn't handle it. after too many years of suffering i finally couldn't handle it. i threw in the towel and quit life. it was just me, my cats, a very messy apartment, and a goddess like downstairs neighbor. i had nothing, nothing at all.

and now. 5 years later and my life has done a 180. i have such a community of friends back home in eugene. and i have friends here. i'm making more friends here and i've not finished. and work - i get to work with leaders in my field (they are on my committee), and up and coming leaders in my field (they are on my committee too). i am incredibly blessed and i simply cannot believe that this is my life. yes, yes, i guess the life of a poor single phd student doesn't seem like a dream life.. but.. there are archives of this very blog that document it all. i don't like to read them because it's too much. it is just too much pain and i don't wish to revisit it. and so considering where i've been this is a dream life. and for it, for the opportunities i've been given, i am incredibly grateful.

posted by brooke at October 9, 2007 06:08 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.