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Wednesday, 11 July 07 :: i'm going to vomit.

if another person talks about how difficult it is to do this with a family. frankly, i'd change places with them in an instant.. because no matter all the difficulties that come along with having a family, at the end of a super crappy day, you've got someone to go home to, who loves you, who wants to be in your life in the most intimate ways. at the end of a crappy fucking day, you've got someone to hold you as you cry your eyes out over the most recent failures, or the difficult conversations, or just the stress that comes with this process. i go home to no one, absolutley no one. i have no one to hold me in those moments.

i hate this state, i really do. i hate who i am becoming. in this moment, i just want to go home.

posted by brooke at July 11, 2007 10:24 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.