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Sunday, 20 May 07 :: blech.

i was reading sandee's weblog yesterday, and then last night over dinner a couple of friends were talking about a woman they know who died of stomach cancer. as they were having the conversation, and as i was reading sandee's blog a couple of things happened..

a) i got a pit in my stomach.

b) i thought about how lucky i am. that even though my family is tasked with the burden of cancer, right now, the burden is light (well, as light as the cancer burden can ever be). dad is not currently in a crisis fight for his life, he's going to massage therapy school and planning a very very very long life. aren't we lucky?

yes. i am very lucky. i am lucky for 2 things..

a) that i can give comfort to those in a difficult space about cancer from a place of knowing. it sucks that i can do it, but that i am able to give of myself in that way is one of the few blessings of the illness.

b) that though i am lucky i can give comfort from a place of knowing.. i can't give comfort from a place of understanding being in the last throes of treatment. no, i cannot understand what that is like for a family to go through. (and i pray i don't ever have the knowledge)

posted by brooke at May 20, 2007 03:06 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.