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Sunday, 10 December 06 :: note me savoring the moment

i just printed out my prospectus for 6570. its the BIG paper of the semester. i printed a copy for me and a copy for her. i may just do really well on the paper. she liked the draft, and both of my professors - ygpd and wkpd - liked what they read as we were putting it together for a grant we turned in on friday.

i'm going to go study for the final, but i just wanted to savor this moment. i walked into 6570 16 weeks ago terrified, not knowing if i could ever figure it all out. i feel like i'm leaving the class as a novice researcher. someone who understands the process enough to be able to have my own ideas about possible studies, how they may be able to get put together and done. i also know who in my department i can turn to for help on the different aspects of my studies, and further what resources i can turn to on my own.

as i was walking off the 2nd floor of the ed building just a few minutes ago i had this feeling of - i'm doing it. 16 weeks ago i was terrified that i would get to this moment and have the thought of - i can't do this.

but i am. and i think i'll savor the moment for just a few more moments before i go study. its a nice feeling, and i'm not yet ready to let it go.

posted by brooke at December 10, 2006 03:10 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.