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Thursday, 26 October 06 ::
this new line of work.
today i am discouraged. the day didn't start off that way - no, it didn't. it started out rather promising. i was feeling better after a day of being sick and i had new and exciting articles about localization to copy and read. unfortunately, as the day went on, i became discouraged.
i was just sitting here at my gmail account and i happily saw the name of one of the LEAD teens lit up in the chat box. i love those teens. i mean, i love those teens as much today as i did when i was there in their midst.
my point. on a day when i felt discouraged, during my time at LEAD, and a teen would walk in i would get instant feedback about my job performance, my effect at LEAD. simply by their greeting i knew i was doing a good job, simply by their greeting, and my excitement to see them walk in, i knew i was doing what i was supposed to be doing. it was a nice feedback loop. a feedback loop that also included hugs.
now. now i'm making it up as i go along. at least thats what my new boss says. thats what you do in a phd program. *sigh* i wish that wasn't the way the game was played. i wish that on days when i felt discouraged, wondering if, in fact, i was taking steps towards my goals, there was that instant feedback loop. i wish there weren't so many conflicting opinions. i wish it were as black and white as knowing that a teenager is excited to see you, or not.
posted by brooke at October 26, 2006 11:31 PM
