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Tuesday, 29 August 06 ::
more whacky adventures as a new phd student
it was an exciting day today. bbpd, aka ygpd, and i met with a friend of his who has contacts in the local school district. we've got content we want to take to a proper user base, my interest is in the school district. so, thats what we're going to do, she and i. and we're going to create a reserach project with it, so we can both get published. its pretty exciting, though i don't know how to do this, but thats where bbpd comes in. he knows how to do this. oh, and did i mention, she is the cousin of someone i know back home in eugene, someone who wrote a letter of recommendation to get into this program? i could not believe it when she said his name, i nearly fell off of my chair. i'm actually walking around my apartment tonight, simply shaking my head.. "___"'s cousin. oh my. *sigh* yeah. its another one of those signs that i'm supposed to be here, yep. sure is.
anyhow. its only day 2 of my phd program, and i already wish i was done with class. i really just want to dive into reasearch, but i have to remember - in time. okay, maybe even a bit now, but in time it'll all come.
*sigh*
i had a not purposeful run in with a lab mate of mine. its not pleasant and right now i'm just angry about it. angry at that person, not me. i should be a bit miffed at myself. anyhow. yeah. anyhow. i'm just doing the best i can, and the angry at them side says - i'm not going to take it, i'm not going to be their whipping boy. the strong side of me says 'whats their vision of themselves?, and see them in their vision.' i'm hoping i can incorportate both. because really, i am a weak weak person, and doing this semester is going to be hard enough as it is, but to also be someone's 'whipping boy' is only going to make it harder. i refuse to be in that position.
welcome to life, yep, welcome to life.
*agh*
posted by brooke at August 29, 2006 10:52 PM
