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Monday, 28 August 06 ::
agh.
i'm up late thinking of all the idiotic things i've said in the last month, stuff i've not done, worrying about how this money deal is going to happen as i move into my midlife crisis, which should happen just a couple of years after i get this damn degree, and hopefully after little brooke, ph.d. enters this world, either by birth or adoption. anyhow. i really am an idiot. and i hope people will forget what i've said. i doubt it. but hopefully other people will understand i'm simply trying to get my feet underneath me. *agh* and that i'm finally starting to realize i'm no longer in eugene. *double agh* and i'm starting to rethink telling bbpd that i really hate the book he gave me to read on friday. (he DID say i may not like it, BTW) because that might just step right back into idiotic behavior. luckily i have 2 other books to read right now -- along with stuff about to come from class -- so i don't need to go back and get another one from him for awhile. though, maybe this asking for stuff to read from bbpd is one of the very few non-idiotic things i've done since i've been here? i can only hope so, i can only hope that will help redeem all my other idiotic behaviors.
now that i've confessed my idiocy sins, its time to go to bed. first day of class tommorrow. i should get to work by 10 (we start things late at my lab), at the VERY latest. gotta get 5 hours in, along with a long class.
unfortunately tuesday, i gotta be in class at 8.30am. oh my goddess. sorry, but thats just dumb (no offense to the professor who is holding said class, they must be a morning person). but if i end up getting into the 4.30 class, i'll drop the 8.30am class.
okay. that was just whacky. i know, i should be happy for my laid back - don't get into work till 10am - life. :P
posted by brooke at August 28, 2006 12:10 AM
