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Thursday, 8 June 06 :: what a freakin' blessing

i wish my writing skills were better these days so that i could tell you about my evening and how when i was on my way home i rode by the park on my bike and looked over and saw 3 teens i know and they were playing soccer and they were happy to see me and they asked me to join them and for 30 minutes tonight i played soccer and got to dust off some of my division 3 soccer skills and not look so shabby but more importantly i just got to play, i just got to play with 3 young people who's company i've come to enjoy and 2 of whom i get to go spend 5 days rafting with and goddess am i a lucky lucky woman.

i don't necessarily get paid, but i'm surving and thriving and on days when i wake up and i think that my illness is about to kick back in and i go to work and i cry when i talk to my boss and she says i can take the dogs for a day just so i can get some dog lovin' and i go to a board meeting and connect with our president and i stop and play soccer with our teens i get home and i feel paid. i feel paid in ways that money can't give me. and i'm able to get by so thats a good thing because today i feel what i didn't feel when i got home last night -- loved. all because of some teens and the big boss chick who for some reason got me involved and brought me into the community and i will forever be grateful for her and those teens.

posted by brooke at June 8, 2006 10:32 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.