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Monday, 13 March 06 :: schools update

yeah. this ph.d. thing that i wrote about a lot last year. its moving forward. and i have too many mixed emotions. i should be happy, but i'm having a hard time finding my happiness around it. i think i'm going to call someone and do some hard core crying about it. about leaving. about.. about. damn those trench people, they've made leaving so much harder. really and truly.

anyhow, i got into utah state and university of washington. utah is my first choice. i'm going to go to logan to visit in a couple of weeks. scout the place out. see if i can really rip myself away from here and do the ph.d. gamble. *sigh*

i've not talked a lot about the sadness i'm dealing with, but its here, and its huge. i don't like people making plans here at home knowing i won't be here. i hate that, a lot. i hate knowing i won't be here, that my time here with these people is so damn limited.

i should be happy, but i'm happiest these days when i'm here, in the trenches. i've never been happier at work.

*sigh*

posted by brooke at March 13, 2006 11:45 AM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.