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Friday, 20 January 06 :: my new body

i don't have a full length mirror in my house, the only mirror i have is my bathroom one. this normally isn't an issue, but right now i'm wishing i had one.

i spent sometime tonight getting myself acquainted with these new breasts of mine. i tried on a bunch of clothes, which wasn't a good idea because all my clothes are the pull over kind, and then i just took sometime to look. i first spent sometime just in my little white bra looking into my reflection in my living room window, and then i dragged a stool over to the bathroom mirror. it was good to see, it was good to get a look at what my body has been through. it was interesting to note the change and to realize how much healing i have to do. its a bit overwhelming, but, when cupped up in my nice, white, simple bra, its very nice. very very nice.

i'm looking forward to being healed. i'm looking forward to experiencing my body in its new make-up. i actually want to go jogging. i've never been able to jog, really, and now, well.. soon, i can. i look forward to this new body of mine, and where i'll go with it.

posted by brooke at January 20, 2006 07:20 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.