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Tuesday, 17 January 06 :: home again

home again, home again from another Heart of Now course. this time i was a student.. a role i'd been looking forward to for awhile.. but it was a long course and lots of emotions flowed. by sunday i was ready to be an assistant again, and monday afternoon found me laughing with glee as i was able to take my role back as an assistant. i won't know how powerful the course was till a couple of weeks from now, but i have an idea that it had a big punch. i'm incredibly grateful for those who held space for me. they are good people and the gifts they give me are simply unmeasureable. on days when i feel alone i simply need to take my mind to those moments and know, that even though i don't see those people as much as i'd like to, that they love me and i them. they are in my life for a reason, and i am a better person for having them. the love that they've taught me to show, the love that they've showed me, its a gift. its a gift to love, its a gift to be loved. yes, my friends, we are lucky people to be able to do this work.

i have my surgery in less than 48 hours. i'm terrified. i'm not thrilled about being helpless and out of it for too long of a time. i'm simply not thrilled about it at all. but i'm getting lots of support around it, and i know that i'm looking forward to the end result.. just not the inbetween.

long day tommorrow. i should try to go to sleep. ~~a lot~~ too much to do.

posted by brooke at January 17, 2006 12:34 AM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.