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Friday, 2 December 05 :: fuck me.

sleep... its the bane of my existance. i'm up at 3.00am. fuck me.

a lot on my mind these days. some of it too painful, for me, to go into.

i'm exhausted. i've stopped sleeping. we put out a 2,000 piece mailer at work. fuck us. but luckily, we've got killer interns and volunteers. yeah them!

my dearest friends are going to baja, and i'm not going. fuck me. i WISH I WISH i could go. i'm going to miss them. esp. since i'm going to be alone on xmas day. fuck me again.

on the happy side.. i've realized this week how much i simply adore my 8 year old friend t. the other day i stopped by after work and i was leaving she told me to stay. so i did. and i did 2 more times as i attempted to leave. how could i not?

when talking about having kids i used to say i want my own b-- my nephew, but lately i find myself saying i want my own t. i'm definetly closer to than b.

on another happy side.. t's ma, p, and i are going x-c skiing on sunday. not only is the powder going to be absolutely killer (the pac nw is getting SLAMED right now, yeah!), but it might very well just be the 2 of us. we've never done that, and while i look forward to someone else coming along, i also look forward to somene else not coming along. t's ma is one of my dearest friends.

i wanna wanna wanna wanna get in!.. but i wish i didn't have to leave to go. (shh. between y'all and me, i wish i could take p and t with me if i get in.)

posted by brooke at December 2, 2005 02:57 AM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.