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Saturday, 22 October 05 :: struggling again

i'm strugging again. someone in the morning assistant circle said something that really hit my heart on a deep level.. it sent me for a loop, it sent me running, and then into my friend m's arms in tears. i thought it was over, but now that lunch has happened, and the hecticness of the morning snack is done, i'm feeling a bit overwhelmed again by my struggles..

..so i'm keeping a foot on the outside of lvec. keeping up in my head some, in hopes that my head will bring me escape from it all. bummer i feel a need to do this, but i can easily get swallowed by it. i wonder if there is a bottom or an end too it.. but frankly, i'm not sure if i want to find that.

so, i'll keep in my head some this weekend, and explore the body some as well. i'll do my best so that i can land on both feet on monday afternoon.

posted by brooke at October 22, 2005 02:42 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.