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Wednesday, 7 September 05 ::
sick. and attached.
i'm still attached. thats okay. at least i know it. and at least its to someone different. anyhow. its all good, and i know it, and i'm reflecting about it.
i'm also sick. sick and attached. ha!
what i do know about attachments, at least the kind i'm suffering from, is that its a reflection of, really, what i lack. i lack or am craving within myself. i know what i lack, i know what i'm craving. its a huge relief to know that. anyhow. its all good.
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in other thoughts. i look at people's hands, a lot. i'm absolutely facinated by people's hands. there are a particular set of hands right now that i'm enjoying the sight of. they are weathered hands.. not old, but not young. the other day i glanced at her hands and then at her face, and thought about how her hands look so much older than her face, and i noticed that i could see the age waiting for its time to come out. i also looked at how strong those hands are, and the wisdom, and the weathering they've been through. then one night i had the chance to hold them, and i felt humbled.. humbled because hands like those sought out my own young, unweathered hands for support and comfort. it was an absolute pleasure to know that i can provide that. i'm enjoying my time these days with those hands.. i'm going to enjoy it as long as it lasts.. if our time together lasts forever, thats great, but if our moments are just a few, thats fine too.. its really just about this time, this present.
anyhow. i need to work. :P oh well. its all good.
posted by brooke at September 7, 2005 06:47 PM
