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Wednesday, 15 June 05 ::
crushes
am i the only one who hates having a crush on someone? *agh* i have a crush on someone and frankly i think it got in my way of connecting with him this past weekend. we did connect, but as i became more aware of my crush, my energy got weird around him. *sigh* i'm never sure how to deal with these situations, and i really appreciate his insights and so i want to get over this so that i can connect with him without my weird energy. *sigh* i'm tempted to talk to him, and knowing him i think he'd be okay with it, but its just that initial 'hey! how are you? i'm sorry about my weird energy, i've got a crush and i'm trying to get over it.' and its not like i'm not thrilled that he is engaged (i am, and from the couple of times i've met his partner briefly, i know that the both of them are very lucky), its not like there's jealousy, its not like any of that.. its a pretty healthy crush, its just that the energy is weird. and being that my interactions with him are around this intense emotional work, i'd like to clear that energy out.
anyhow. my so few readers. any thoughts on crushes?
posted by brooke at June 15, 2005 02:00 PM
they suck. That's about all I have to say about that :)
Seriously - I've been there. Used to lay awake at night envisioning how the conversation would go with the coworker I had a crush on if/when I ever got up the nerve to spill my guts. In the end, I chickened out. And after 5 years quit my job. Mostly because it was a dead end situation but more than a little bit so I could just end my misery. I wasn't about to make a move and I figured if he *was* interested but hadn't made a move because of some "don't dip it in the company inkwell" policy then my quitting would free him to pursue me. If he wasn't interested, then the torture would end anyway....
You have my sympathies.
posted by: MustangSally at June 15, 2005 02:27 PM
