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Tuesday, 1 March 05 ::
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back from breitenbush. relaxing sure does take a lot out of a girl. soaking in hot tubs, hiking along paths in old forests, herding little girls around, eating really healthy food (maybe too healthy), and then sleeping in a cabin too hot. yes, its tiring.
i was up at 6.30 this morning worried about things to numerous to count. i wonder if i will ever stop worrying about my poor ovaries and how their product won't be used, for oh fuck, i just hope its not too late. i take an emergen'c packet every morning, and an iron tablet, but neither contain folic acid. now that i have a job, i'm going to invest a little more in me and go to the kiva, by bike, pick up some folic acid. i can do my best to keep my body healthy until i finally figure out life and am able to reproduce. i'm starting to think reproduction might take place in the form of foster, but, in the end, the child that is ment to come to me, will. and that child will be loved more than i, or s/he, could ever imagine. and that child will be loved by s/he's grandparents as if they were natural, if they aren't. anyhow, thats one of my many worries.
my grandfather called early. good to hear his sober voice. sober voice is good voice, and makes me tear up at the sound of his 3000 mile away voice. i miss the old coot, more than i imagine.
off to help out the dear's of wand with logistics at a presentation, then off to my first full day at work. good deal.
how are my few readers? besides the lack of sleep, especially now that i have half decaf, half regular with lots of french vanilla creamer coffee going through my body, i'm really ducky.
ps. i hate mcafee privacy service because gmail notifier hates it.
pps. commuted across town, on bike, goddess that was nice. even the hill right before my new office. a short one going up, a nice glide on the way down. stopped by the store, bought a whole bag of candy, and ate it all. :P no folic acid. tommorrow on my way home on my bike. wouldn't it be nice to get an actual career type job, in eugene, so i could commute on my bike?
ppps. i removed mcafee privacy service. i hated it.
posted by brooke at March 1, 2005 08:42 AM
