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Friday, 31 December 04 ::
ment to have been posted last night.....
i'm talking to a friend today about an event that is being organized to help out the tsunami victims here in eugene. its a time when folks can organize around something non political, and apparently the people spearheading the organizing are from the religious community here. in talking to my friend i ask about the christians, the non-left christians. he says they can do something, this is for us. i say back, well, i'll offer to be the go between between the 2 groups of people... he turns down my offer.
see, i connected non-political with the community really coming together. i didn't think about it much, i just went there. logic insued.. and if this is really about all of us coming together, then there is no us and them.
thats where i'm wrong. apparently. in his left mind there is an us and them. there is supposed to be a separation between us and them, the left and right......
....................... but isn't the whole purpose of the left to bring us together, to get rid of the us and them, to create world peace? aren't we on the left supposed to be models of community, of not us and them but instead doing the thing that is right?
i'm not sure about this.
i went to a meeting tonight. i was happy to be there, at first.. but then the topic.. and the discussion of keeping al-anon pure and keeping words like God and Him in our readings there, because without those words we wouldn't be who we are. well, of course i reacted to that, and explained why, and told them i loved them and needed them, but this.. well, it wasn't me.. and all that.... and afterwards the person who brought it up did not mean it the way i took it...
................. but then someone came up to me and told me all about her frustration at the beginning with people who didn't view god the way she did and how much she grew in al-anon because now she does and how i'll grow... and essientally told me i just needed to spend more time and i would become like her.
well.. not hearing me and dismissing me because i believe in all inclusion is a very right (political) thing to do.. i nearly asked her if she voted for bush, because, from what i've discovered in al-anon, only bush voters in al-anon act like that towards me.
... so here i am, stuck in the middle. from the left i get us and them and from the right i get dismissal. and now i'm stuck.. because, you see, i understand where both the left and the right come from. i get it that my left friend doesn't want to work with them because they all act like the woman from the right.. and i understand that the woman from the right believes fully in what has come before and that it has helped so many. i get it.
i don't feel comfortable with my friend's attitude, i don't feel comfortable with a close minded left. the left is what i believe, but when we shut our minds so easily, and we don't question when we do, i don't like that, at all. i love the left.. and i want to accept the right....
... but the right, the right is so right in their minds. there's no room for question, there's no room for someone like me.
where do i go? i know where i belong, but if i have to fight close minds on that side, i don't want it.
*sigh*
i'm rambling. high on chocolate. this was supposed to be so much more prolific. sorry.
posted by brooke at December 31, 2004 10:31 AM
