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Friday, 13 August 04 ::
tired of it.
this is going to sound weird, but i'm tired of the presidential campaign already. i'm tired of the commercials, the news reports, the speculation, the continual lies by the bush camp. i'm tired of it. i'm tired of the fear that sits in my belly that bush will be reelected. i'm tired of the fear of november 2nd.
things are better for me when i go down to the campaign office, or when i'm doing work on don's campaign, because i feel like i have control then. i feel like i'm working to the greater good, and with each keystroke or successful meeting we are moving towards the positive goal of the elections.
maybe its just the distraction of the work that i like. the fact that the daily grind of the campaign is not about the issues at hand, its not even about the candidate. no, its about creating your plan and acting on it. its about making sure that our canvassers know where they are going, that our phonebankers know who they are calling, that all of them know what to say to the people on the other side of the door, on the other end of the line. the daily grind is the constant revision of your strategy while moving forward on your current strategy, all at full force. the daily grind of the campaign, once in it, is just a day long adrenaline rush. there is no time to think of the 'what ifs'. there is really only time to think of the 'what nows'..
during andrea's campaign every here and then we'd talk about the 'what if'.. our what if being if she won. but we didn't do that very often. no, we didn't allow ourselves that, we couldn't allow ourselves that. we knew that if we dug to deep into the results we'd either get discouraged or not discouraged enough. we knew that the day was about the tasks and the reactions, we knew that whatever was to come at the end we'd deal with that like we dealt with each day-- in the then and the then-now.
the commercials on tv are for the folks who aren't working the day in and the day out. they are for the folks who get the luxury of being able to look forward.. and i guess they are also for the folks who aren't so scared of what could happen that they aren't moved to work? i don't know, thats judgemental. the people who who really care aren't paying attention. the people who know what is at stake don't need the continual analysis of the campaign, they are doing what they can to get the outcome they wish for.
but i tend to live too much in the future, i tend to dwell on it, i tend to try to plan for the worst. and whats so scary about all this is that if the worst happens, i don't know what i'll do. the plans i'd like to enact i might not be able to, they might not let me. i might be stuck moving forward with the worst happening all around me.
posted by brooke at August 13, 2004 11:27 PM
