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Wednesday, 11 August 04 :: naka-ima

naka-ima its what all the cool evolved (re: highly educated, somewhat crunchy, poor) folks do. its how we learn to become better people.

i have been avoiding it for years. really. years. i've been denying its existance or simply saying 'oh thats so great it works for you, i think i'll just go... mumble to myself in a corner'.. or something like that. yes, i've been keeping myself away.

until my friend p took the course last month.

now i wanna be one of the in crowd. i wanna be as cool as p when it comes to all this touchy feely, getting in touch with your feelings, highly evolved stuff. (okay, so i'll NEVER be as cool as p, because, face it, she'll always be waaaaay cooler than me)

i emailed the way cool naka-ima folks and got my in. well, really, it wasn't that hard.. i just requested to be a part of it on a certain weekend.. (oh, and GET THIS, i'm such a smarty-tarty pants, i decided to do it just a mere 3 weeks before ballots go out!) and then they sent me a confirmation and a big long list of questions i must answer.

questions.

questions about my heart and my soul. questions to get me to get all touchy feely and more evolved and stuff.

so now i've got this big list of questions that i'm avoiding. telling myself that yeah, its all good. but still.. lording over me.. like a test. "can i be more evolved at the end?" "can i be in the cool crowd" or will i just fail miserably. either i'll come across as too nutty or not nutty enough. balance is not my strong suit.

we'll see. i'll plow through. hopefully get to the end (before the deadline), do my best to answer the questions to the test, to be able to become one of the touchy feely more evolved..

torture i tell ya, torture. hahahahahaha

posted by brooke at August 11, 2004 11:13 PM

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i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.