rivervision - since election day of 2000.

Tuesday, 3 August 04 :: i have the best mom

really, i do.

i read lots and lots of stories of people who have crappy moms. people who don't get along with their moms, people who dread going to see their moms.

not me.

goddess.. she and i have been through shit, but i've never wished she wasn't my mom. no, not ever.

tonight she was a gem. 2-3 months of crap has piled up. piled up, piled up piled up. i called tonight and just let the tears run.. let the anger come out, ran around and around in circles with her. oh goddess yes. and she just sat on the phone and said 'i want to listen, i want to help.' she was so sweet.

i know my life sucks, and i don't have a family of my own, but i know so many people out there who have crappy relationships with the family of their birth. at least i've got a good relationship with my mom, dad, and brother.

yeah, i am incredibly jealous that my brother is happily married and has a son. but i'm glad that he's happy.. and my nephew.. i am so glad that he's alive and that he looks so much like my brother. it makes me cry when i think about that gift to my brother.

i wish i weren't alone. i wish so much that i weren't alone. and these days i'm so angry about it, so angry about being alone.. but at least i've got my mom and dad and brother... at least i've got them.

posted by brooke at August 3, 2004 08:09 PM

comments

As long as you can see something positive, you're on the right track, you know?

posted by: Chasmyn at August 4, 2004 01:42 AM

about
i'm brooke, born in '73. i am currently a phd student in instructional technology. this is the blog where i capture all the neurotic, and the few non-neurotic, moments that seem to come with being a phd student (if you want to read less neuroses and more professionalism go to: oer's, dl's, reuse and culture: it's about a phd student researching digital resources in a multicultural world). i have been from eugene, oregon for a long time.. 8 years specifically (its my home now, but i grew up in southwestern virginia), but now i'm here in logan, utah at utah state university. after finding my roots in eugene i never could have expected that i would leave that liberal oasis and head to utah. but i did and there are days when its a blessing and days when i'm tempted to go back to oregon and beg the folks at lost valley educational center to let me move in. but i won't leave because there are days when this process is better than any kind of high i could ever imagine. what else? i collect things, i have 2 cats, 2 kayaks, 2 laptops (i'm a geek - one mac, one pc). i can be emailed at brookesblog@rivervision.com.