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Wednesday, 28 July 04 ::
maybe, maybe not..
today was great. i flew through the day. an excellent phone call with j first thing this morning. then an excellent meeting and talking with j for 2 hours. then my car got booted, which i really didn't care about because i'd already budgeted for it, and i was simply playing cat and mouse with the carbooting people.. i was delightedly amused when i called to have the car un-booted.. "oh, its only going to cost $$$ to remove it? i had budged $$$ to pay the tickets.. oh wait, how'd y'all get me? i'm not breaking any parking law? oh, you were waiting to find me! i got caught! hahahahahahaha" then a quick conversation with d, a pleasant conversation with qwest, they'll give me a great deal on a phone line.. and then calling p and saying to her 'i'm waiting, the day is going so smoothly, everything is falling in to place, i'm going to get shit upon.' p assures me everything will go smoothly
i just shouldn't start talking about how ducky things are going. nope nope nope.
agh.
*sigh*
but it'll all be okay, i'm sure. everyone is still grumpy? still learning how to work together? goddess i wish j were on this project. and now i'm thinking about volunteering to work with j for sometime just so i can work with her cause she's just so good.. "think of men as 12 year olds." hahahahaha that was great.. a whole new vision i had. but still..
where am i?
oh yeah. the shoe dropped, my mood plummeted.
but i spent 1/2 hour feeding a mama cat and her 2 kittens cheese, 2 of the many my neighbor feeds.. maybe there's hope that they'll want me to pet them? it just felt good to be nurturing to others that aren't spoiled with a home and human of their own. the whole time i'm thinking 'i'm giving them my cheese. this feels good. i love my cheese, but they need it more.' goddess, i am just so selfless :P
i have a doctors appt on friday. my chronic illness is currently not being treated with any medication. i don't respond to it. its been a year since we've talked about meds. or maybe not? maybe it was just my physical in march? goddess, i hope not. so, i'm hoping its been long enough since our last talk that maybe a new med has come out on the market? wouldn't that be nice. for awhile i was proud i was not taking meds and going along nicely, but now that stress is adding up and my wish for someone to participate in my life has grown and its not coming to fruition i've decided that on second thought a lifetime of managing this illness without help is not something i really want to do. call me a big wuss, i don't care.
g'night.
posted by brooke at July 28, 2004 11:59 PM
