she is a lesbian, radical feminist, cat lover, bibliophile, non-smoker, unitarian universalist (though she doesn't go to fellowship on a regular basis) and in the process of becoming athletic again. she dreams of being jeanne d' arc and swooping in and saving those that need saved (though she'd rather not be burned at the stake). she is a loyal friend who will do anything she can for those she loves, but she can flakey sometimes when her depression flares up. she is a loner. a southerner self-transplanted to the pacific northwest in 1998 and now believes that it doesn't rain enough here. she's known for her honesty, she can't help it, its the only way to be. she is 4'8" tall, and round. she has natural blonde hair and she also has blue eyes. she is very intense. she hates small and large crowds, she prefers the one on one or the one on a few. she has no idea what she wants to do with her life, though she would like to see more of the world than what she has seen so far (a good part of the continental united states) and she very much wants to be a mother. finally, she has huge crushes on alix olson and carolyn gage (these are from a far).

what?

all of this war talk is sending the value of the dollar DOWN. and fast. at least thats what the BBC says. i believe the bbc. i think it was rumsfeld who opened his mouth and fucked it up today-- wednesday. yeah, everytime that man opens his mouth bad things happen.

i can get currency exchanged in portland, at the airport. why didn't i do it when i was just up there? because i didn't think this would happen, oh yeah- and cause i was much more wrapped up in my grandmother's death.

i really can't afford it, but i can't afford not too. i can't afford to worry about how much the dollar will go down once we go to war. this ridiculous killing of the innocents.

yeah, its already fucking up our fucked up economy, and its going to fuck it up even more, except for the defense barrons.

it looks like i've joined the events committee of the justice not war coalition here in eugene. with my illness being as bad as it is right now i need something to do. so, i'm doing that *and* organizing the eugene baring witness action. oh yeah, and i'm still waiting to hear from opn about volunteering to help people learn how to use computers, and i'm going to try to join the mother kali's board when the announcement comes out for new members. busy is better. hopefully i won't get too busy.

i should be excited about this trip, but it just seems to be gettting in the way, and all the costs involved.. well, they just dont' seem to stop. no, i really don't have the cash to spend in driving back to portland. no, i really don't. why? because i've all of a sudden had an unexpected insurance cost, because they've decided to pay my doctor not what she charges anymore, so my cost per visit has pretty much doubled.. oh yeah and have i mentioned that *i* pay for my therapist, not them- because they only cover a certain number of mental health benefits? yeah. i'm not sure why i have insurance anymore.

i tell you, greece better be fucking amazing. the stress i'm going through because of this trip is out of control. yeah, it better be way fucking amazing. or else i'm going to be one pissed off chick.

ps. seen somewhere on the web: bush: the world is not your world.

ps2. i AM going to portland tommorrow. i've just looked on the web, the dollar is going down by the minute. 1058 USD = 900 EURO. when i planned this trip they were pretty much equal. FUCK.