she is a lesbian, radical feminist, cat lover, bibliophile, non-smoker, unitarian universalist (though she doesn't go to fellowship on a regular basis) and in the process of becoming athletic again. she dreams of being jeanne d' arc and swooping in and saving those that need saved (though she'd rather not be burned at the stake). she is a loyal friend who will do anything she can for those she loves, but she can flakey sometimes when her depression flares up. she is a loner. a southerner self-transplanted to the pacific northwest in 1998 and now believes that it doesn't rain enough here. she's known for her honesty, she can't help it, its the only way to be. she is 4'8" tall, and round. she has natural blonde hair and she also has blue eyes. she is very intense. she hates small and large crowds, she prefers the one on one or the one on a few. she has no idea what she wants to do with her life, though she would like to see more of the world than what she has seen so far (a good part of the continental united states) and she very much wants to be a mother. finally, she has huge crushes on alix olson and carolyn gage (these are from a far).

i went to the peace vigil that happens every wednesday and i didn't feel better.

i bought the new robin williams dvd. i love robin williams. i'll watch regis and kelly if i hear he's gonna be on i love him so much. i popped it in, i sat back watched, and thought, good goddess i never realized he was so offensive!

i've reached out and left a message on miriam's message machine, and talked to randy.

i made the decision to go to the peace action that rooting out evil is having, if it happens along the border over on this side of canada and the us too. thus, my birthday is cancelled.

none of that has helped.

called my doc. she said to put one foot in front of the other. thats what she always says. she also said that if i want to just sleep the next few days that i can.

but i hope i don't, because the against patriarchy conference is this weekend, and i'd like to get a schedule and maybe try to go to one or two workshops. but being that the thought of making a quick trip to the red apple to get some milk and something terribly sweet to put in my stomach (sugar is my recreational drug of choice) was overwhelming i don't see myself making it.

maybe i'll try to call rayo in the morning. we cancelled going to the hot springs. me because i feel like shit, him cause of the rain. i should see if he's up for a cuddle.

the doc also said to keep calling my friends. even though i'm hurt that none of them have called me in a long time. she said that didn't matter. yep. thats my doc. love the doc.