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still tired today. things are starting to implode upon me. i'm so strong. blech. blech. blech.

i'm stressed about everything. i think thats why i'm so tired. i can't imagine it being anything else. the next two months.

it would be a hell of a lot easier if my mom weren't going to be in eithopia for the next month. fuck. i'm attempting to put together january right now. how the fuck am i going to make it through january? and mom is going to be gone in case i need some emergency bucks. i am never ever ever loaning money to anyone ever again. i'll tell people they can be mad at __ (aren't i ethical for not printing the person's name?). i let things slide and they did too and now she doesn't have the bucks to pay me back, and i need the bucks because of a situation, a very unexpected one. but of course i'm lucky, cause mom is here to help me out. but if i hadn't loaned the money to this person i wouldn't need mom. never loan money to anyone. i don't care how long you've known them, how much you trust them. take it from me, the information i learned last weekend.. amazing. simply amazing.. oh fuck, make that disturbing.

mom has also sent me a box of christmas gifts. i'd really like to open them. i already opened one, cause i knew it was either a gift certificate or money. i wanted to know what it was so i could calculate it in to all the money, financial stuff thats going on with the money stuff for the next two months, and then the money stuff going into the greece trip. (the tickets are non-refundable, thats why i have not refunded them in light of the next 2 months) i want to open the gifts so i can work them into what i'm going to further need for greece.

this trip to greece shouldn't be this stressful. this whole thing shouldn't be this stressful. i simply shouldn't be falling apart.

but considering other shit thats going on, that i can't talk about. *agh*

i think i might very well take miriam's offer up tommorrow just to spend time with her instead of a massage, cause nothing hurts. i'm just stressed. but i'm worried about her. and usually the game is i'm more able to get stuff out of her when i'm on the table than when i'm not, and i really want to know whats up, cause i wanna help. yes, i can be a little devil at times, but its for her own good :)

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brooke is a lesbian, radical feminist, cat lover, bibliophile, non-smoker, unitarian universalist (though she doesn't go to fellowship on a regular basis) and in the process of becoming athletic again. she dreams of being jeanne d' arc and swooping in and saving those that need saved (though she'd rather not be burned at the stake). she is a loyal friend who will do anything she can for those she loves, but she can flakey sometimes when her depression flares up. she is a loner. a southerner self-transplanted to the pacific northwest in 1998 and now believes that it doesn't rain enough here. she's known for her honesty, she can't help it, its the only way to be. she is 4'8" tall, and round. she has natural blonde hair and she also has blue eyes. she is very intense. she hates small and large crowds, she prefers the one on one or the one on a few. she has no idea what she wants to do with her life, though she would like to see more of the world than what she has seen so far (a good part of the continental united states) and she very much wants to be a mother. finally, she has huge crushes on alix olson and carolyn gage (these are from a far).