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what on september 11th?
so, last week roni mentioned that IT was only a week away. she said this on the 4th. yes, the anniversary of that day was only a week away. she talked about what she'd be doing that day.
i commented. i thought i'd comment here.
i'll be doing things. yes, it will be my first shift as a classroom assistant (volunteer position) in the baby room at the relief nursery. the relief nursery provides help to families in need. i love babies. i'm good with them. i've worked in a child care center and had 5 babies under my care, all alone, at one time. i have a degree in early childhood education. *and* baby therapy is good. as long as they aren't my own right now, being with babies is a good thing for me. i know that from previous baby holding experiences. so for 3 hours on september 11th i will be doing what i can to help the lead teacher care for babies who need me.
i'll be keeping my cellphone close. i've got a dear friend who might need me. and i'm honored that she might need *me*..... its nice to feel needed, ya know? or even possibly thought of maybe being needed. so, i'll be spending the day sending energy to her.
and the day will end in the best possible way. with m. a massage. touch therapy. thats better than talk therapy for that day. becaue the day will be kinda surreal. even 3000 miles away i won't ever forget that day.
i hate that day. i hate that day and what this country has done about it. i hate that day and what its done to people i love. i hate that day, no not nearly as much as others, but i hate it. and people here are taking action that day. okay, peole here have already started taking action. its a week of action. and i don't want any part of that.
too much pain has been caused by that day. here and over in afghanistan. and its not fair. and i don't want action, i want peace. DAMMIT. that's what my grandfather would say. DAMMIT. my father says it too, and i've gotten it from him. but i want the pain to go away. i want it to stop. all this pain being caused by that day. and it continues, it continues amongst so many of the not heard.
so, i hate that day. i hate that day and for all the pain it has caused. so, its going to be surreal. but i'm grateful that at the end of it i get caring hands laid on me. and luckily the massage is not a selfish thing.. cause m says she gets a whole lot out of doing the touching as i get from being touched. so hopefully the day will end on a positive note for her too, because she'll get to do what she enjoys so much.
*sigh* i just want it over. and i want this talk of war to be over. i'm tired. i'm tired of all the violence. and i'm rambling. but can't we just work as humans to stop pain? where is that in any one politician's agenda? STOP THE PAIN. how hard is that, it's the most humane thing that could be said. and yet they don't. they only talk war. they only talk violence and retribution. and that causes pain. and, take it from me who knows, not physical pain, pain.. we have to stop it. we have to stop the pain.
please please please can we just work as humans? why did we have to learn more violence from that day? why didn't we learn humanity? i just don't get it. i simply don't get it. the media might portray some acts of humanity, but as a whole we are not acting as humans if we want violent retribution. no, we need to reach out and stop the pain.
maybe i'm just some hippy who lives in eugene, oregon, home of one of the most famous hippies of all time (or, would that be former home?)-- ken kesey-- who believes in love instead of war. but i do. because. well, i'm just rambling. and i'm tired.
Posted by brooke at September 07, 2002 01.09.34 PM
